two summers

in two cities.

10 year reunion

I totally have a crush

The problem is I'm still searching.

Clearly this is the next content revolution of this blog. Basically now a full on personal journal. Well, I guess it was bound to happen. At least this way I can justify that I share these feelings.

So back to searching. I think that its about finding that thing to figure out. Keep the focus. Find the belief. Some times I sorta catch it, I guess its like a humming bird or butterfly, whichever smudges wings.

Its like I'm back in high school.

How people can find that confidence.
I catch mine around friends, people I know.

Back to shared experience.

Okay, the point of my job is to create an experience in which a positive interaction will occur.

That is also kinda the point of life.
Now I'm starting to feel these weird things. Like in high school.
I'm afraid of looking stupid again.

Its usually only the beginning though. Things smooth out.
"put things on shelves"

Love unfortunately is also in the head.

Note to self

It is easy to tell those stories. About being hurt, life disordered, working on patience.

But most of the time they are only crafted for our own mind. They only make sense there.

It is hard. That was a period.

I think its finally 2008.